“For God’s sake, hold your tongue, and let me love!”

I think of you at 4am when I cannot fall asleep and all I can think of is the day we stayed up till 5am, laughing.

I think of you when I wear my favourite blue palezzo and crop-top because it reminds me of our almost-date when you told me your favourite colour is blue. 

I think of you when I walk past that shop near my house where we hugged awkwardly, but so hard that I couldn’t breath. 

I think of you as I watch and re-watch Marvel movies, 
We both love the Avengers.

I think of you when someone holds my hand, and all I feel is the warmth of your palm on my wrist as you grabbed my hand to stop me from rushing into incoming traffic. 

I think of you when someone throws a rocket in class, and all I see is the ink-dripping pen refill you had accidently flipped at me in class. 

I think of you when I see a boy on campus with curly hair, and I let myself hope for a second, just a second, that it is you. 

I think of you when I talk to your best friend and all I want to ask is : “How is he? Has he moved on?”

I think of you as I constantly remind myself not to,
because the pain is too much to bear.

I think of you at my strongest moments and at my weakest.

-S